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leriaI woke up extra early this morning to go thrifting for a skit I can wear on Saturday. Sadly, I had absolutely no luck finding anything.
There was this long black skirt with white flowers all over it. I thought It was really pretty, but my mom thought that it looked something an old person would wear. And I left it behind. I also picked out another blue skirt that I really liked, but she also made me leave it behind because she didn't think it suited me.
Every time we go thrifting she always makes me feel super insecure about my body. She's a lot heavier than me, but every once in awhile she says how she's getting skinnier than me. I promise you she's not. I'm 5'3 and weigh around 139, she's 5'7 and weight around 175 and she looks like it.
I'm not all that happy about my weight, but she always has something to say about my hips. They're like the biggest part of my body. I look visibly thinner than her, but we have the same waist size because of my hips so she's always going about how I should dress for my weight and that I'm not as skinny as I think I am.
But she's proven wrong every time I try something on that I know will fit me.
Anyways, I decided to text Paula asking if I can join her and Zadea to the mall, and she said they're going tomorrow. I'll just go buy the dress I saw at Forever 21 that I really liked.
She also mentioned to me that Adrian, her high-school ex -boyfriend and the bane of my existence (so glad he's gone from my daily life), talked to her about maybe trying out a long distance relationship. He goes to the same college as Julio, outside the state.
I've basically been Paula's supported the whole summer. I remember one night, just at the beginning of summer, the whole group chat was on a call and she said,"Adrian must be back home by now." And I asked her if she really knew that or if she was just guessing, she said she wasn't sure but she wished she knew. "So just call him up them." And she did, and everyone else on the call were discouraging her from doing so.
All I told her was that if you really liked him, you have to at least try. That's just because I don't take my own advice, you could say I was trying to live vicariously through her. Like what would happen if I just texted Julio? Who knows. Also because as much as I hate Adrian (long story), I love and appreciate Paula's friendship more, and if she's happy with him then I'm happy. Just don't invite me to the wedding.
She also mentioned how she was certain that he was messing around with this one girl at college, and she asked me to follow her and tell her what she posts because she was on private, since I was the only one in the group who didn't follow Adrian back on Instagram. "There's no way she'll know that you know him!"
So I did. I followed her before I clicked on her Instagram, directly from Adrian's following, and when I clicked I realized she was public. Oh shit, I thought. So I quickly unfollowed her and told everyone.
And tell me why a couple of days after reconnecting with Adrian, he asked her when was the last time she talked to me!!!! "He definitely knows I told you to follow her."
"But how does he know that I followed her?? It's not like he has access to her instagram?" That's when it kind of hit us that those two definitely have something together.
But anyways I guess not because of what he asked Paula today. At least I hope he doesn't.
There was this long black skirt with white flowers all over it. I thought It was really pretty, but my mom thought that it looked something an old person would wear. And I left it behind. I also picked out another blue skirt that I really liked, but she also made me leave it behind because she didn't think it suited me.
Every time we go thrifting she always makes me feel super insecure about my body. She's a lot heavier than me, but every once in awhile she says how she's getting skinnier than me. I promise you she's not. I'm 5'3 and weigh around 139, she's 5'7 and weight around 175 and she looks like it.
I'm not all that happy about my weight, but she always has something to say about my hips. They're like the biggest part of my body. I look visibly thinner than her, but we have the same waist size because of my hips so she's always going about how I should dress for my weight and that I'm not as skinny as I think I am.
But she's proven wrong every time I try something on that I know will fit me.
Anyways, I decided to text Paula asking if I can join her and Zadea to the mall, and she said they're going tomorrow. I'll just go buy the dress I saw at Forever 21 that I really liked.
She also mentioned to me that Adrian, her high-school ex -boyfriend and the bane of my existence (so glad he's gone from my daily life), talked to her about maybe trying out a long distance relationship. He goes to the same college as Julio, outside the state.
I've basically been Paula's supported the whole summer. I remember one night, just at the beginning of summer, the whole group chat was on a call and she said,"Adrian must be back home by now." And I asked her if she really knew that or if she was just guessing, she said she wasn't sure but she wished she knew. "So just call him up them." And she did, and everyone else on the call were discouraging her from doing so.
All I told her was that if you really liked him, you have to at least try. That's just because I don't take my own advice, you could say I was trying to live vicariously through her. Like what would happen if I just texted Julio? Who knows. Also because as much as I hate Adrian (long story), I love and appreciate Paula's friendship more, and if she's happy with him then I'm happy. Just don't invite me to the wedding.
She also mentioned how she was certain that he was messing around with this one girl at college, and she asked me to follow her and tell her what she posts because she was on private, since I was the only one in the group who didn't follow Adrian back on Instagram. "There's no way she'll know that you know him!"
So I did. I followed her before I clicked on her Instagram, directly from Adrian's following, and when I clicked I realized she was public. Oh shit, I thought. So I quickly unfollowed her and told everyone.
And tell me why a couple of days after reconnecting with Adrian, he asked her when was the last time she talked to me!!!! "He definitely knows I told you to follow her."
"But how does he know that I followed her?? It's not like he has access to her instagram?" That's when it kind of hit us that those two definitely have something together.
But anyways I guess not because of what he asked Paula today. At least I hope he doesn't.
