Holding out for a yes.
Aug. 6th, 2024 08:25 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
leriaWoke up this morning to a text from Damaris that she wanted to tag along with me, Zadea and Paula to the mall.
I was a bit pissed off. Don't get me wrong, I love Damaris, she's my best friend, but I kind of just wanted to hang out with Paula and Zadea. The three of us when to high school together, and I guess I just wanted to reconnect the same way we used to back then. Besides it kind of feels like Damaris is a part of my whole life.
By that I mean that she's a part of almost every friend group I have. Now, that wouldn't bother me all that much if I was a part of every friend group she had. But she's made it clear on multiple occasions that she doesn't like when her friend groups interact, so I feel like there's a part of her life that I'm not privy to. While on the other hand, she is able to connect to every person I have a connection to as well.
I don't know, I guess I just wanted to have this one time with Paula and Zadea to myself.
But it wasn't that big of a deal, I guess.
When Paula picked me up from my house, she was talking about how she was really sad that me, Damaris, and Gama weren't going to the club with them. Which in turn, made me sad. So I caved in, and told her that I could make it, I just had to ask my dad for permission. And boy did she have a field that with that.
When I told Paula this, it felt like Damaris instantly changed her mind about not wanting to go. That kind of made me mad, just because she was the one who initially told me that she didn't want to go to the club or sleepover. But the more the merrier, I'm not that mad anymore.
Anyways, at the mall I found a white dress on sale for $7.00!! So I had to buy it, even though I'm not completely in love with it. It was too cheap to turn down.
We all found things to wear actually, after the mall we went thrifting. Everyone kind of peer pressured me into getting this one black crop top to maybe weal to Mala, and they also wanted me to wear a skirt. Absolutely not, the crop top was pushing it. I bought it begrudgingly. Paula also was kind enough to buy me a pair of white heels. Love her for that.
Afterwards, we went to eat at Cane's and that's when Paula mentioned that she was bringing THC (pens? idk) and psychedelic gummies to the sleepover. I don't know exactly how to feel about that. But I'm sure she'll fin dit easy to convince me once I've had 5 Twisted Teas in me. Zadea sounded like she was trying to convince herself, when she was explaining that the gummies "aren't actually that bad". And Damaris has chosen to stay sober, or well that's what she says. She's just like me, we cave a little too easily.
When I got home, I explained to my dad that I wanted to stay the night after the dinner,"I don't know. That's too much."
Too much what?? To much to ask for? He usually doesn't deny me anything, but my mom says I asked him at a bad time. He was already in bed half asleep. I'm hoping that tomorrow he'll change his mind. I really do, because I already bought a shirt for Mala. I really hope I didn't spend 13 dollars for nothing.
I was a bit pissed off. Don't get me wrong, I love Damaris, she's my best friend, but I kind of just wanted to hang out with Paula and Zadea. The three of us when to high school together, and I guess I just wanted to reconnect the same way we used to back then. Besides it kind of feels like Damaris is a part of my whole life.
By that I mean that she's a part of almost every friend group I have. Now, that wouldn't bother me all that much if I was a part of every friend group she had. But she's made it clear on multiple occasions that she doesn't like when her friend groups interact, so I feel like there's a part of her life that I'm not privy to. While on the other hand, she is able to connect to every person I have a connection to as well.
I don't know, I guess I just wanted to have this one time with Paula and Zadea to myself.
But it wasn't that big of a deal, I guess.
When Paula picked me up from my house, she was talking about how she was really sad that me, Damaris, and Gama weren't going to the club with them. Which in turn, made me sad. So I caved in, and told her that I could make it, I just had to ask my dad for permission. And boy did she have a field that with that.
When I told Paula this, it felt like Damaris instantly changed her mind about not wanting to go. That kind of made me mad, just because she was the one who initially told me that she didn't want to go to the club or sleepover. But the more the merrier, I'm not that mad anymore.
Anyways, at the mall I found a white dress on sale for $7.00!! So I had to buy it, even though I'm not completely in love with it. It was too cheap to turn down.
We all found things to wear actually, after the mall we went thrifting. Everyone kind of peer pressured me into getting this one black crop top to maybe weal to Mala, and they also wanted me to wear a skirt. Absolutely not, the crop top was pushing it. I bought it begrudgingly. Paula also was kind enough to buy me a pair of white heels. Love her for that.
Afterwards, we went to eat at Cane's and that's when Paula mentioned that she was bringing THC (pens? idk) and psychedelic gummies to the sleepover. I don't know exactly how to feel about that. But I'm sure she'll fin dit easy to convince me once I've had 5 Twisted Teas in me. Zadea sounded like she was trying to convince herself, when she was explaining that the gummies "aren't actually that bad". And Damaris has chosen to stay sober, or well that's what she says. She's just like me, we cave a little too easily.
When I got home, I explained to my dad that I wanted to stay the night after the dinner,"I don't know. That's too much."
Too much what?? To much to ask for? He usually doesn't deny me anything, but my mom says I asked him at a bad time. He was already in bed half asleep. I'm hoping that tomorrow he'll change his mind. I really do, because I already bought a shirt for Mala. I really hope I didn't spend 13 dollars for nothing.
